PLEASE READ THESE TERMS: Monday, October 29, 2007Y
2:13 AM
hihi, today is rather free.
jux finish English & Maths paper 1.
anyway, i'm not here to talk abt the papaers,
but something that really make miie almost breakdown.
hahax. can anyone explin to miie what is 'e chinese ppl does not want to mix wif her'?
hahax. how i wish i hab e answer to it.
haix. why is that so?
i din mean to drift apart,
but they say somethin like i treat MZ beta then other?
is jux that you guys noe that u need to study,
but she more playful,
so i'll ask abt her whenever she didn come for extra class.
if i really treat her beta,
whenever u ask mii to help you book place in e library i will have reject it.
but i didn. some even ask miie why i need to help you 'chop' place,
but i find it is okay to b done, as we are friends.
but to you all, am i one of e friend?
all e words will eventually pass to miie in one way or another.
i should learn to let go.
Friday, October 26, 2007Y
8:13 AM
hihi. very long never come up n blog lerx.
seems like spider web is growin.
anyway, o-level have started fer one week lerx.
overall, none of the paper make miie feel confident.
NONE!
no matter is practical, a-maths,chemistry or today's history~
rather sad, not that i didn put in effort, i did,
but jux some how i seems to noe everything but also noe nothin.
sound confuse? i'm also confuse.
hahax.
theory dun say lerx, i'm not good at it,
but e pratical was really somethin that i wanna kill muaiiself.
e physics practical, how stupid am i draw everythin to one paper ?
haix~ nothin to say abt it. jux bein so stupid.
mayb is jux too nervous.
but luckily e chemistry i got e answer. Zinc Carbonate.
hahax.
however, this week i'm feelin very down.
i realise that friendship is jux like two hands, onli two hands clap,
one effort is not enough. really.
i keep tellin muaiiself not to get bother on by it, but i can't.
i'm tryin muaii best to get to where we are in the past, but everythin was jux not ritex.
i feel that i'm not part of them.
is been 8 weeks, but i dun feel that i belong to the group.
this really hurt miie.
ya, you guys might say that i'm the one who want to join you guys,
but i really wish that things would get better.
i have no other intention.
i treat everyone the same, but what you guys said really hurt miie.
like i treat one better then the others.
i really hope that this five years i'll end off wif good memories, not the sad one,
but. did you guys really think that way?
i dun feel it.
really~
i feel that i'm transparent to you guys.
perhaps, the things happen in past is not somethin you guys can forgive n forget.
mayb i'm not a person that other worth friend of.
mayb~mayb~
i wanted to cry, but i tried not to.
i want to cry out loud.
but these are tears of sadness.
these are not i want from friendship~
a friend is never a coincidence in ur life
they are meant to enter your life to bring you Joys n Laughter
it is to be treasure fer e life time.
Wednesday, October 03, 2007Y
1:12 AM
hihi. my last post was so long ago.
think muaii blog going to have spider webssssssss lerx.
last few weeks were busy wif prelim,
e result not to expectation, rather sad abt it.
will continue work hard derx.
school now change our timetable to 3period per subject,
wif 3period, the time seems to be movin faster then before.
still have 19 days to o-level,
scary!!! Must work hard !!! Jia You !!!
this few weeks lots of things happen,
okay, i'll start from school,
school will be abt our class seems to isolate one of e guy lahx,
then think he got emo then decided not to cum school,
but some how his dad came down to school,
then teacher ask we all what happen norx.
haix~dunno what he thinkin,
i was bein isolate b4 what, what so big deal?
jux that he dun dare to face it n run away from it.
what a thing a guy do?
must be brave n face it, n think abt where went wrong,
not run away from it.
from this incidence, i believe that what goes round comes around.
now most important is study, rather then bother abt all this things.
Friends n classmates is not everything in life !!!
Anyway, if there is no need, i will also not go talk to him.
hahax. why??? is a long story.
i will forgive, BUT not forget !!!
now come to personal play time.
ths few weeks play alot,
although most of e time are in school(7am-5 plus)
i still play alot. hahax.
on e 23 Aug, miie meizhen, puay hua n bee khim went to sentosa.
we meet at 08 30 in e mornin. hahax. super early.
then reach there it rain. luckily it didn rain fer long.
when it stop, we went to e beach,
then we play n suntan lorx.
abt 1 plus we leave sentosa, we went Novena fer lunch.
we go eat e Lingo Mango. very nice,
but we waited very long norx. then we eat n chit chat.
on e way back home, khim suggested to go play badminton.
at first i thought she was really crazy.
cuz very tired. but we still go play badminton in e evenin around 6.
suddenly we got very energetic, then play till 8 plus or 9 like that.
super tired. go home bath n i play computer then watch tv n fell asleep.
now days relationship wif daddy was not very good.
haix~ dunno what happen,
feel that whenever i going to talk to him,
i'll jux turn away, n go back to room.
jux dun feel like talkin to him.
i think he must be very sad also. but i really dunno why.
last time we can sit n talk fer hours, now...
hiax~ wonder what can make us back like the past....
you can never slove a problem at e level it was created.
onli when u face it then you will find e solution to that question.